Monday, July 28, 2014

Free At Last

There is nothing to do but smile. 

Everyone else is dead. 

They killed themselves. 

I can see the light of freedom shining dimly.

“War is peace.
Freedom is slavery.
Ignorance is strength.”
George Orwell,


Wednesday, July 23, 2014


“I imagine one of the reasons people cling to their hates so stubbornly is because they sense, once hate is gone, they will be forced to deal with pain.”
James Baldwin, The Fire Next Time  



Wednesday, July 16, 2014


I'm really hoping all the work is worth it. 
I'm cramming years into one, while pitted as the underdog. 

If not, I'll rack it up as experience. 

“We learn from failure, not from success!”
Bram StokerDracula

Friday, July 11, 2014

Thursday, July 10, 2014


And if you kill me,
Do  it slowly. 

I want to feel a little satisfaction for once in my life.

Sunday, July 6, 2014

Waiting for times of Change

I'm fucked.
As fucked as one can get. 
Still I can imagine different. 
The difference is never manifested and I sit here still. 
Waiting for something to change. 

Any second now. 
Still waiting. 

“Shit on your whole mortifying, imaginary, and symbolic theater!”
Gilles DeleuzeAnti-Oedipus: Capitalism and Schizophrenia

Shit in a nutshell

In the truth of everything, I hate the creators because of the pain I feel.  It makes me restless and tired.  I feel exhausted.  I can't imagine another 70 years at this worthless game of cards.  It is mundane and meaningless.  

Which is the fact of choice.  I can use my hard work and education to get a job. Work 9-5, come home, drink, and sleep. Repeat. Rinse. Repeat. Eat. Repeat. Work. Sleep. 

What life is that? On top of it, I can make it more cliche and get married and have kids.  How mundane.  How stupid. But that is life. The American Dream in a nutshell. 

“Shit is the tofu of cursing and can be molded to whichever condition the speaker desires. Hot as shit. Windy as shit. I myself was confounded as shit...”
David Sedaris